Friday Post : Being a worrier..

Oh yes.. I admit it.. I am a worrier..

If my husband is travelling and I cant reach him.. I worry.. 

If my kids tell me "My .. hurts or it pains here" I worry..

If we go for a routine health check.. I worry.. A LOT..

If my close family / friends are going through something I worry..

In my pregnancy, I worried about my kids being fine.. and me doing all what I can.. correctly..

I can go on and on.. I know not a pleasant list to make..

Well.. Yesterday afternoon, I was lying on the couch.. reading a book.. while waiting for my daughter.. there were 20 minutes for her van to arrive..and somehow, I fell asleep.. I had a very bad dream.. Me and my daughter are running in the dark and a huge flying squirrel with bat-like wings is chasing us.. I am dragging my daughter and running to find some shelter.. and I have no clue when and where I can be safe.. and... I tripped..and fell down..face down in the mud.. There were red ants everywhere .. I am not able to get up.. The squirrel now climbs on my neck and pins me down on the ground.. I am still holding my daughter.. swaying her in hope of avoiding the ants from climbing on her.. both of us are shouting..and I am pushing the squirrel so hard with my only free hand.. but its soo soooo heavy..  I take a deep breath.. use all my strength.. and I shout my head off.. and the Squirrel screams in my ears.. its unbearable.. I feel like This.. This is my end.. and I want to look at my daughter one more time.. it may be MY last time.. and the screaming is going on and on.. louder.. I am trying to turn my head.. but I just cant..  and suddenly I WOKE UP!

Aaahhh... I look around.. I cant believe it was a just dream.. there are eight more minutes till my daughter's van arrives.. and my god! Those eight minutes were sooo soo long.. 

So many questions were popping in my head.. 

Should I call and check with the Driver? 

Should I call the school? 

Is it a sign? 

Does she need me right now? 

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But, I managed to ignore them.. and convinced myself that it was only a dream.. nothing has happened.. 

Its a normal day..... Thank goodness! but I was so restless till she came... 

There are so many things constantly going on my mind.. even when I am enjoying something.. or thinking about something.. or I am studying with my kids.. these thoughts.. loops actually never go away..

I mean once I am sure everything is fine.. and okay.. I instantly cool down.. 

Like I was never  worried in the first place.. 

And that is the reason, I have learnt to just let these thoughts be..  not to always take them seriously.. or act upon them in a panic mode.

I heard a speech recently.. And the speaker made such a good point..

When some thing happens Like, your husband is late, and you not able to reach him.. or, you are awaiting the reports for your routine check-up.. or likewise, The bad thoughts are first to take over your mind..

You think about so many unwanted things.. Car breakdown.. accidents.. something unpleasant..  

And because you allow these thoughts to come to your mind, you are sending negative energy / negative vibes to your loved ones, friends or even yourself.. 

Well I am no expert, but in these simple situations, I tell my overly anxious mind, Everything is fine, kids will be home.. or  my husband will call me if necessary.. I should not worry.. Its a bit of a struggle really, but the Point is make sure you think positive things.. overpower your negative thoughts.

Do any of you guys worry about small things?  

And what do you do to keep your cool?

- Gauri